March 21, 2006
Maybe sometimes...you don't even believe what you are thinking is what you are thinking. Like, if I know this is what I'm unhappy with about my life or my lifestyle, and I can list you reasons why that is so. But, after saying it, I start to doubt if this is actually what I think. And maybe, I think it's better not to think about it anymore. And just run away, just hide. Be an escapist for a while, many whiles if it takes. Then, maybe when I come back, return here, I would find a new world, a whole new way of thinking, or a whole new way of how I see my life. Maybe that will happen. Maybe it will not. But for now, I just try to carry on life, inject a bit of control into steering it the way I think I should. And the rest is just... out of my control.
xxx
Miracle spoke this last March."We go into this, blind-folded, trying to feel our way around... and if the way is out, we wouldn't know it until the fold has been taken out."
And then I think, how did she get so profound? Hmm...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 13:46